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 Hello, you Beautiful People!

I've often thought if I could just create a “capsule kitchen,” I could probably better manage my eating behaviors. Interestingly enough, this really is a thing. Sometimes it's called a “capsule pantry” or “capsule meal plan.” To ice that cake, I already possess a “capsule meal plan” download which includes a grocery list and the meals you make with that list. I forgot that I had that (courtesy of the See Mindy Mom channel on YouTube). So when I'm done with my errands, and I'm waiting for the laundry to dry, I'll pull that out (or print it out, if I no longer have a hard copy, but I'm pretty dang sure that I've already got it somewhere), and customize it to better fit my nutritional needs and my family's eating patterns.

My brain is clearly in a much better place than yesterday (no desire to hunt down cookies or any such thing), and I'm going to use that hyperfocused ADHD mind for something that will help my eating behaviors in the future (the capsule wardrobe planning definitely helps me to greatly reduce purchasing clothing just because I think it would be lovely to own--lovely is great, but it has to fit into the wardrobe as well).

Okey dokes -- I need to run those errands, so the laundry will be ready for the dryer when I get back! I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here! 

 Hello, My Beautiful Friends!

Today started off on the right the foot, but somewhere in the middle I was definitely walking with the wrong foot first -- I spent most of my day online, putting together a capsule wardrobe, which isn't the worst thing, but it was also rather excessive and obsessive. I did place an order for something things that I need for this spring, but I didn't spend a crazy amount of money, and I bought needful things. The sloppier move I made was to have a couple of cookies after lunch from my husband's stash...and a couple more...and a couple more...and so on and so forth. It is now time to start cooking dinner, but I don't think I'll be eating. I just ate too many of his cookies to want to eat right now.

We have to go back to not having desserts in the house except for weekends and holidays. I'm just not to be trusted with that type of stuff in the house.

Oh, well. Eating too many cookies isn't as bad as getting drunk as a skunk, so there is that, at least!

I hope you are all finding something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here! 

 Haiku Horror Writing Prompt no 1652:refuse

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

Today is Saturday, which means a face-to-face meeting, dinner with friends, a walk with the dog, and loads of laziness.

Those dinners with friends used to involve too many margaritas or too many beers, and I cannot tell you how happy I am that those years are behind me. Sometimes my dining partners have a drink before or with their meal, but seldom more than one. There is no longer any urging between us of “you deserve it” or “have another.” Those who enjoy a margarita enjoy it, those who want a Dos Equis with their fajitas savor it. And those who aren't interested, drink their water or fizzy beverage, and the community meal doesn't feel broken in any way.
I remember earlier in my sobriety, I felt like I was missing out on something. I wasn't. Honestly, even the beer doesn't smell as good to me as it used to. It's not that the smell of alcoholic beverages turns me off, it's just neutral now. Well, except for wine, I really don't like the smell of wine that much; it smells like vinegar to me.  These meals are much more enjoyable now. I think they are more enjoyable for my friends, as well. There is more focus on what we are saying to each other and less focus on what each person is drinking.  It's a beautiful thing.

I hope each of you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here.

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

It's a rainy day, and Ted is getting his bath, so the focus will be definitely be on giving the primary bedroom -- and dog bed! -- a thorough vacuuming. Sheets will be laundered, and floors will be mopped, and I'll probably watch a movie.

I feel like I'm finding a healthy rhythm for the foods I consume and what makes a meal a meal. If I want to look at my food habits in terms of abstinence, I think it's as simple as not eating between meals, and trusting myself to know that my meals hold the nutrition I need.

That's all I got for this morning -- it looks like I have two rather simple days in a row. How nice…it's like having a weekend before the weekend.

I hope you each find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here! 

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

It's just about 10am, and I've accomplished next to nothing, but since I have next to nothing to accomplish today, that's totally cool. The updated schedule says “yard work,” but I haven't decided what I want to plant yet (I need to redo the front foundation garden), so that will probably just mean going out back to play with Ted and do a poop patrol. My husband has two appointments today: dental (he is on his way there now) and his physical (in the afternoon, I'll be joining him for that one). I haven't put away the towels I laundered yesterday, and I still owe R a text. All in all, it should be a simple day. Simple days are beautiful things, right?

I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

Hello, you Beautiful People!

I thought I checked in yesterday, but apparently, I did not! Yesterday was a lazy day (I did a short errand run, and then mostly watched TV and played with my phone), and I was fine with that. My energy will always ebb and flow, and yesterday was just one of those ebb days. I also revised a poem to further embrace just how ludicrous it was. It wasn't a good poem, and it still isn't, but I ironically like it. Sometimes I wrote poems that I like, but as a literature major I also know aren't very good. And that's okay. If you're curious, both the original poem (from a couple of days ago) and the rewrite can be found in this journal entry:

https://myveryown-nemesis.dreamwidth.org/629561.html

I went to an online OA meeting yesterday (I swore that I wrote about that here, but I don't see the post now, which is why I really shouldn't swear), and it was fine. I'll probably go back. I didn't dropped the full two weeks on the FAA food program the other day because it started to feel like "a diet" to me, instead of a new way of eating. I might want to get an OA sponsor to discuss ways of eating, but I haven't decided on that yet.

Okey dokes...I think that's all I have to catch up on. And if I already did write about the OA experience, my apologies for the redundancy. I hope that each of you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here! 

 Haiku Horror Writing Prompt no. 1698: cave
#haikuhorrorprompt

cave

it waits, mouth open
like a tunnel with out end
it swallows you whole

03-23-2026

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

The engagement party was lovely. We got to spend a little time chatting with M's parents, got to meet his partner A for the first time, and enjoyed their amazing backyard with a view of the Rappahannock. It was a beautiful day.

The ride home was a bit of a challenge once it got dark. I have horrible night vision, and the oncoming lights kill me (astigmatism). I've said this before, but I need to stop driving at night. I had the worst headache by the time we got home, so I took a couple of Tylenol (and a couple of melatonin, since I had a diet coke in the afternoon), and used my heated eye-compress for a bit. And then I went to bed at 9:30. The headache was down to a dull roar, and I was ready to call it a night.

My husband is still asleep. I have no clue how late he was up last night -- I was dozing for a bit, then fell into a deep sleep after I heard our son shut the front door when he got in. Usually when my husband comes upstairs, it wakes me up, but not this time.

Today is about planning the week, taking Ted for a walk, and maybe reading a book. Unless the headache bounces back. If that happens, I'll probably use the eye compress again and listen to a podcast or two. I should also text R, my AA buddy and sponsor. I really haven't been in touch with her since the spreading of my sister's ashes.

That's it for me today -- going to be taking it easy for the most part, and plan on enjoying the weather before it gets too hot for me out there (it's supposed to get up to 80...I like it when temperatures run a bit lower than that).

I hope you each find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!